I have complete faith in my body, that it can do what I need it to do. I had never even considered that I wouldn’t be able to have a natural childbirth or that complications could arise… That is, until I found out tat not everyone feels that way and the way hospitals work nowadays.
I know I need to be relaxed to all possibilities so I can go with the flow when I am in labor and giving birth, but I am afraid of what would happen if I am transferred to a hospital. I’ve heard horror stories, not just from books but even from people close to me… Women may be determined to have a natural childbirth, but it seems like as soon as they step inside the maternity ward there are nurses trying to “ease their suffering” with an epidural, and doctors trying to speed their labor up with pitocin. When the cocktail messes up the woman’s natural process and labor is slowed down or halted, the staff is happy to suggest a Cesarean.
I am terrified of succumbing to this fate. More than anything, I would love to give birth naturally in my home, staffed by my midwives, perhaps a doula, and my dear husband.