I was not good about updating this blog as long as I was on maternity leave. As it turns out, when you have a little baby your time is divided between taking care of her, feeding yourself, and attempting to keep house! But now I am back at work, baby-free and planted in front of a computer! Now excuse me while I go pump…
Luckily I am coming back to a great environment. I just used the lactation room- I was the first woman to ever use it for its intended purpose! It had been used for some storage, but has everything I need. Chair, outlet, mini fridge, sink, a tv on the wall, and privacy. Susan, the office admin, said she would get a table (I put my pump on a box for now) and a lamp (ambiance is everything, right?), then I’ll probably get a small rack for drying the pump pieces. It’s kind of like my own private room for the next few months! I have one coworker who is pregnant and due in about a month, and she plans to breastfeed so then we’ll share the room if I am still pumping then (I plan to be).
I think the hardest part about coming back is actually the feeding. Audrey is not a fan of bottles or even pacifiers, so I don’t know for sure that she will eat enough when it isn’t coming straight from me. She’ll get used to it I’m sure, but for the first couple weeks I’ll probably drop by her day care during lunch to make sure she gets at least one good feeding for the day. Today Luke dropped by with Audrey so I could breastfeed her in the backseat of the truck! Knowing I’d see her soon helped me get through the morning, I think, because I didn’t have a super long day ahead of me before I would see her again.
Speaking of seeing her, Audrey is 3 months old today! Somehow time has dragged and flown by at the same time. It seems like it has been forever since I gave birth to her, but I feel like I have been a mommy to this little baby as long as I can remember!
Last night we spent the evening in and I managed to stay up for the ball drop (check out my photo blog post here!). It was a pleasant evening, and low-key just like I wanted/needed. I was having strong, frequent contractions all night again but ignored them and sat on my ball for much of the night- as I projected, they went away again while I was sleeping so glad I didn’t say anything! One thing I’ve learned and mentioned before is that even if you are having strong, not-BH contractions, it does not mean you’re in labor.
To think I was all worried that I’d go before 36 weeks and have to go to the hospital! Well, today is New Years Day and I am 38 weeks, 4 days pregnant. I am not looking forward to going into the office tomorrow, but just a few more days and it will be that perfect timing I was hoping for! I have to remind myself, though, that even though I have been having all these contractions for a couple weeks now, the baby could still wait a few more weeks before he/she is ready to come out.
I am debating with myself about when I want to start maternity leave… If I don’t give birth by this weekend, do I want to go to work next week when I am “due” on Friday, or just start leave after this week? Or maybe plan to work on Monday and Tuesday then start leave? I have a bunch of projects coming in soon that my coworkers will be taking over, so if they come in early enough I might be able to handle them before I leave. I just have this feeling that as soon as I am gone, they are all going to come in and my poor coworkers will be slammed! The good thing with my office is it is only 10 minutes away so it’s not a big deal to go in or leave if I need to, a lot of my work I can do from home, and I can just work up until I go into labor if I want as long as I keep them updated.
The baby is wide awake now and kicking up a storm, wishing everyone a happy new year!
Today I am 38 weeks and counting! The baby may not care about my plans, but I am hoping that I go into labor a week from now! I’ll be 39 weeks, it will be after New Years, I won’t have to use up any maternity leave on short weeks, it will be a week before this baby’s cousin’s birthday so they don’t have to share parties (unless it just works out that way, I guess), and my mom could get a flight out on Friday night or Saturday! Wish me luck getting the baby to come at the perfect time haha…
I have experienced four different types of contractions so far.
Braxton Hicks: I’ve had these for a long time, and didn’t know what they were at first… They happen at random intervals of time and my tummy would just get all hard and I wouldn’t even notice half the time unless I happened to be touching my belly.
Painful post-nookie/early labor contractions: Intense pelvic pressure and lower back pain… belly contractions rock hard and just a few minutes apart lasting for a few hours.
Early labor/rhythmic BH: These feel pretty much like Braxton Hicks contractions, but are at short, rhythmic intervals – when I’ve timed them, they’ve been anywhere between 4 and 7 minutes apart for hours on end.
Stronger early labor: I feel like I’ve been punched in the chest- my heart rate picks up and I start breathing harder, then about ten seconds later my tummy gets all hard. These are actually very distracting- last night I got them right as I was trying to go to sleep and they weren’t letting up, so I actually had to get up, have a glass of wine and read a magazine for a bit before they lessened enough for me to get some sleep.
I can see why so many women would rush to the hospital thinking they are in labor since there are so many different sensations… I have heard from a lot of women that labor contractions feel different and you’ll just know when you’re in labor for real, but I’m not so sure about that. I am slightly concerned that I will be just waiting for it to go away like I usually do, and before I know it, I’ll be so far along that it’s a rush to get my midwife and doula there!